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midlife crisis and transition. Hamster Wheel. Mind and Love.

Midlife: A New Mode of Being

I was feeling utterly aimless and frustrated. I didn’t want to replace old goals with new ones; it made me feel like a hamster on the wheel. Yet it was familiar; a mode of existence strongly imprinted in my mind; set goals and strive to achieve them. I didn’t know how else to live, but I was simultaneously annoyed by the seemingly inherent dissatisfaction that accompanied this mode of being.

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Relationships, Mind and Love, Mental Health

It’s Never the Toilet Seat

Most of us probably bury or ignore the annoyance or frustration. However, at some point these irritations exceed the arbitrary and fuzzily defined levels of personal acceptability; to the point where we can’t neatly tuck them away; where annoyance turns to anger and blame; when the façade fades and is replaced with bitterness, resentment, and negativity; when the small doses of poisonous thoughts that we could smoothly digest secretly without symptoms become a passive aggressive comment, or shouting and fighting; when the affairs within our minds become actual affairs; when our cheating thoughts become cheating in the flesh.

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